had my off day ytd.
met damien for dinner and when we were abt to go down zouk, he called!
hehs. so happy can. so we waited for him and all of us went down zouk tgt.
michelle's team won and ive yet to congrat her. =x on top of that, also saw yutaki. we spoke to him for quite awhile and seriously, i miss his lessons. really miss it alot. sigh.
after zouk, we headed down to mos. clubbed til quite late. and i saw a few frds, a few that i rather not hv seen them arnd. =/ i felt guilty la, cuz i think damien was bored. i think nxt tym it's better i club with my own frds, and not ask them along. if not they wil be bored, and i wil feel bad, and i might just get affected too.

aniwae, i think i stil lack slp.
i wish to slp my whole lifetime away at times. if only i could. den i will be away from the world. woah! aint tat good? nth more to worry, except to slp and slp and slp. RAHHH. ok im juz dreaming and gg real bored.


thinking back,
sometimes i just cant get over everything.
why did it had to go in this way?
why muz things end up like tat?
fate is makin a fool of us.
we always meet the right person at the wrong time.
and when u meet a new person, u move on.
whether or not u still have feelings for the prev person, life goes on.
and gradually it doesn't matter anymore, cuz there is alrd hurts that you've taken pain to get over it.
u carry on with life.
but somewhere along the way, the past haunts you and you are trashed all over again.
every step u take, u take it with care. but with extra care, u seem to miss out on the very fact that u are actually becoming fearful. and many stop loving. or perhaps people still love, but they put a limit to it, they have a barrier.
human behaviour, mentality, and character change. some matured.
just to protect ourselves. from being stabbed on the wounds again.
we no longer enjoy the relationships we get in.
we maybe happy. we enjoy our times together, but the fact we had been hit badly before,
we eventually became numb. we stop crying. we stop thinking.
we just look at one side of many things. we just wish to be happy, and forget everything else.
we drown our sorrows. tho we maybe seen smiling, laughing, we are no longer the us we used to be. our smiles became fake. our joy are no longer true. ppl no longer feel the cheers and bubbly, light feeling when they are arnd us. we drift frm our frds, because we cant put our ideas across anymore. we no longer communicate effectively with ppl. we get stuck with telling ppl how the experiences affected our lives. only a few who hv gone thru similar situations understand. but again, similar situations, different characters and mentality. this lead to a different aftermath on us.
life goes in rounds, changes route. we mit new ppl, some old frds depart frm our lives.
be it a drift, a god-planned death, a flight that puts 2 at different geographical locations, the days of our lives are no longer spent with the same ppl, the same old way.
misery, loneliness, pain and tears; all are kept in the heart.
who knows what's gg on in each other's livs completely? and who knows what each other's really feeling?
life's really a search.
we know that there's more rough patches in front of us,
what will we become at the end of the day?

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